Ok... so needles can hurt a little more than I thought! Last night's evening injections were not as painless as my morning injection of Lupron. 1. There was more to inject, and 2. I think the needle for Gonal-f is a little bit bigger. After the injections I iced my tummy and arm since it was still bothering me from the blood draw yesterday morning. Both my arm and my stomach feel a bit better this morning. This morning's shot was a piece of cake. I didn't feel a thing but I'm not looking forward to tonight.
More emotions...
I have been sitting at this computer for over an hour with the intentions to plan for the upcoming weeks of school, however, I have zero motivation. Today I am feeling down again... really down. Thoughts of this IVF cycle not working have invaded my brain. I hate feeling so pessimistic, however, at the same time, I know I have to be prepared. I know what is meant to be, will be... but if that conflicts with what we want so badly, it is going to be so hard. I wish things didn't have to be so difficult. I wish I didn't feel so down, so swollen, so gross. James just called me and asked if there is anything he could do for me. He can't... no one can. I feel bad because I know he feels bad- but I am just in a funk.
Enough of the pity party. Even though I don't want to do anything, I am going to force myself to. I'll be happy I did. Until next time...
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Way to go Kristin! I think this will be a great outlet for your thoughts and feelings. You and James have grown so much already through this process and I am sure that your love and care for each other will just get stronger. You both are wonderful and amazingly strong people. Please turn to me at any time to talk, cry, or celebrate all the little (or big) milestones. Talk with you soon! Thinking about you always! Love ya! Sally
ReplyDeleteJust want to say I love you guys!! If you need anything I am always here.
ReplyDeleteKristin you are one of the strongest woman I know, but let your faith in God guide you through this and everything will happen just as he planned.
Talk to you soon....