Waiting...

Exactly 1 week ago today, our little embryos were transferred back to my uterus. Since then, I've been taking it as easy as possible and just waiting. I've been getting a lot of emails and texts asking when we'll know. It won't be another week until we find out whether or not the little ones implanted.

SGFC strongly encourages its patients not to take home pregnancy tests because of the possibility of false positive, and false negative results. I do know of someone who took a home pregnancy test 8 days after transfer and found out she was pregnant and now has twins. At first, this knowledge had me thinking that I might do the same... however, there are just too many what ifs and quite frankly, I am just scared! As a result, James and I have decided to wait until my scheduled blood test, which is this coming Friday, January 30. I've taken the day off and will go sometime in the morning. I will receive a call from my nurse sometime that afternoon with the results. If it is positive, I will go back in two or three days for a second test to make sure my levels are rising. I think they might even have patients come back for a third! We will certainly let everyone know as soon as we can. I haven't decided how I want to go about doing this yet- and I guess it really depends on the outcome!

This week, the wait hasn't been as hard as I expected. I definitely am thinking about the possibilities a lot more now that it's Saturday and my time isn't occupied with work!
I think next week will probably be a bit more difficult- but if I've been forced to learn anything through this entire process- I've learned a bit about patience. There is nothing I can do about time- so I will just wait!

I have several symptoms. I'm not sure if they are early pregnancy symptoms- or just a result of all the hormones I am putting into my body each day.

1. My boobs are incredibly sore. This is not a new symptom, although it has gotten worse. The progesterone I am having injected nightly has a tendency to do this. The soreness is so bad that I have difficulty sleeping. I always sleep in tank tops with the built in bras to eliminate, as much movement as possible, but at this point, it's not enough. I am normally a side sleeper- and with my butt so sore (from the shots), this is really the way I'd love to be able to sleep at this point... however, the weight of one breast pushes the other breast into the mattress- which causes tremendous pain. (I realize this is probably t.m.i. but it's the truth!) Last night- I kept my bra on and stuffed two socks between the "twins" to keep them separated. I also positioned my arm under my body so that I was lifted off the mattress a bit. I was able to sleep on my side this way for about 30 minutes at a time- but would have to shift when I could no longer feel my arm! I figure that if/when I am pregnant and my boobs become even bigger and potentially hurt more, I will probably have to wrap myself up in an ace bandage to be able to sleep comfortably! I've done this before and think I can conger up something that will work!

2. I am tired! This is also not a new symptom- but something I am noticing a lot more. For example: I got home at 6:30 last night and immediately went to lie down. At 10, James woke me for my shot. Afterwards, around 10:20, I went back to bed and didn't get up until 10 this morning. It's now 7 p.m. and I could easily fall asleep again!

3. From time to time, I have slight cramping in the area of my ovaries and my uterus. I'm not sure what this is from, but I've noticed it more and more yesterday and today. It isn't too painful, but strong enough to know that I am not making it up!

4. Every now and then I feel a dizziness- or blurriness in my eyes. I know this sounds strange, but it's the only way I can describe it. It usually happens when I make a sudden movement. I have no idea what this is from, or what it could be a symptom of- I just know it is something I usually do not feel.

5. James will certainly attest to the fact that I am having some major mood swings. I find it very easy to cry, become angry, and/or removed. I am trying to be aware of my actions- but sometimes, I feel they are out of my control.

6. Over the past few weeks I have definitely gained some weight. So much so, that James took me to the mall today so I could buy some new jeans (one size bigger) because I am just not comfortable in any of my other ones. My work dress pants are all still fine- but I am not sure for how much longer! James and I both agree that I shouldn't go back to the gym until we know that I am pregnant (or not) for sure... so it looks like, I am going to have to get used to being a little bit softer for a little (or maybe a lot) longer. My only salvation in this is that I hope and pray it if all for good reason!!!

Well, I think that about sums everything up! If I get a chance, I'll post again before Friday! If not, you'll hear from us one way or another soon! Thanks so much for thinking of us and keeping (all of) us in your prayers!

Until next time...