It is impossible to even try to begin to describe the gamut of emotions I've experienced over the past several months. This has, by far, been one of the hardest years of my life. As they say, we learn from our experiences. Here's a list of some of the things I've discovered.
1. Life is hard.
2. Life isn't always fair.
3. I don't handle stress well.
4. It is impossible to not think about something that you want more than anything in the world.
5. Sometimes it is better not to say anything at all.
6. They say, "GOD won't give you anything you can't handle." GOD thinks I am very strong... a lot stronger than I am aware of!
7. I can't do everything myself. Even if I work really, really hard! (This was a hard one to learn!)
8. I would not be sane right now if it was not for my husband, family, and friends who have provided a listening ear, words of encouragement, or just a hug over the past several months.
9. Needles don't really hurt that bad.
10. I love science.
My first injection!
About Me
- Kristin
- I am 33 years old and have spent much of my adult life trying to prevent pregnancy. I never knew trying to have a baby could be so difficult. We've been trying to get pregnant since September 2007. In April of 2008, we had a glimmer of hope with a positive pregnancy test, but one week later found out that 5 and 1/2 weeks into the pregnancy I miscarried. My pregnancy was considered a chemical pregnancy... whatever that means! Many people told me to "stop thinking about trying to become pregnant" or that I was "too stressed out" and once I "relaxed" it would happen. Because how I really wanted to respond was not an option, I settled for, "O.k. Great idea!" However, deep down, I felt something wasn't right. After testing, it turned out that I was right. As twisted as it sounds, I never felt so happy to hear that there was something wrong. For the first time in a year, I finally didn't feel crazy! In October, after consulting with my OB-GYN, we were referred to Shady Grove Fertility. After further testing, James and I found out we were "perfect candidates" for IVF. Three months later, we have just started our first IVF cycle. This is where our story begins.
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